Hello!
How cool is that? My Mom was up last week and we went to the Inside Out exhibit at the Museum of Nature. If you get a chance to go - do it! Its super cool - the insides of all different kinds of animals. Here are a few other photos I took.
We also stopped in to look at the bugs which is always my favourite part of the Museum - as you can tell by my Mom's expression, maybe not one of her favourites!
We also went to the Tulip Festival - believe it or not, I've never been even though I've lived in Ottawa for almost 6 years.
We also had Dom's parents over on Mother's Day for dinner - the first time I've cooked dinner for more than just Dom and I in a long time. It was nice to give back after all of the meals I received during my cancer treatment. I've spent the last three weeks puttering around the house, going to the gym and going out for lunch with a few different friends from work and of course, my friend Preety. I took Preety to Bobby's Table for breakfast one morning - she had never been but she like it - and who doesn't like Bobby's Table especially for breakfast.
I got this great cancer present from Cheryl and Selma - the solution to "light drinking". I think this is super funny and according to Cheryl, it actually fits a whole bottle of wine.
Oh and Dom's band played twice in one week - one was at a small bar on a Tuesday night and the other was at Zaphod's for a Nepal earthquake fundraiser (apparently they raised more than $3000 which is impressive).
There weren't many people on the Tuesday night - it was me, two of Dom's friends Marc and Sam and a gaggle of teachers that Hugo works with. I don't know Hugo very well as he is their new guitarist (in the photo on the left) but he must be the most popular eligible bachelor in his school right now because there were the three of us and then like 7 or 8 teachers (all women).
Other than that, the last three weeks have been pretty quiet. I have been going to acupuncture regularly and Tran has me on some Chinese herbs to help with the night sweats. This is what they look like.
Basically they look like a mix of weed and magic mushrooms but trust me, they aren't. So I have seven baggies of these herbs and I have to soak one every night, then boil them and then strain them and drink the water. I affectionately call it "Swamp Water" and yes, you guessed it - it pretty much tastes like swamp water.
But I'm pretty sure its working because I forgot to drink it one day at the cottage this past weekend and I was getting hot flashes every hour and didn't sleep very well.
My group therapy is starting at the beginning of June so stay tuned for that. Oh and there was an article in the Toronto Star about the therapy (I'm surprised that Uncle Rick didn't read it, cut it out for me and mail me the article - old school style). Here it is if you want to read it. Toronto Star article One comment about this article - Sophie describes cancer as a "backpack" that people carry around - I think if you'll remember I described it the exact same way in the last blog entry (just saying).
Also I joined a Facebook group called Rethink - for young women with breast cancer and its really cool actually. I am going to the Green Door Cafe on Sunday night for dinner and to meet the group and I've also signed up for a cooking class with the group at the OICC on June 7th so that sounds like fun too. I have a funny feeling my cancer friend circle may get a bit bigger in the near future which is a complete infraction to my 'no friends with cancer rule' but as Preety taught me, having a few like-minded people with cancer as friends isn't so bad - its actually great. You can make jokes about having cancer that other people wouldn't understand (or even might find offensive) and you can chat freely about the side effects of cancer without the other person feeling bad for you. Plus you just feel like somehow someone understands you without even having to explain it.
So through this group I've made one new friend, Jaclyn. We met for coffee last week and shared our (strangely) similar cancer experience, plus she's from Southern Ontario so she gets points for that. And, she had her wedding reception at my friend's restaurant in Exeter (Eddington's of Exeter) - small world eh?
I went to see my Family Doctor (Dr. Gagnon) this past week since I hadn't seen her since pre-cancer. She knew all about the past nine months because the cancer centre sent her every test, progress report that I had so it honestly, wasn't much of an appointment. I am going for bloodwork just to test a few things that Dr. Craig wanted to know and to check my lymphocytes (a type of white blood cell) because it was low after I finished chemo, right before my surgery. Its weird because when you get chemo you get a blood test every two weeks before chemo and when you are done, my oncologist never had me get another blood test to see if my body bounced back from chemo which I've always thought was weird. Dr. Beaulieu had my blood tested before surgery but not for all of the things that they test for with the chemo blood tests. Just one of those things I guess, but I'm not worried because Dr. Craig and Dr. Gagnon seemed to have picked up the slack on that.
We went to the cottage over the long weekend and I'm sure like everywhere this past weekend the weather was up and down but overall it was a good weekend. We stayed at my Mom's for the first few nights then over to my Dad's cottage until Tuesday. I didn't take any photos except this:
Here are the ones Dom took:
This one is cool - fries out of a vending machine!
Silly Dom (this is actually in the front yard of a veterinarians along Highway 21 outside of Port Elgin).
Fat May sunbathing and listening to tunes.
Lola trying to keep warm
Me trying to keep warm!
There were a few flies at the beach too.
Overall, a good weekend but it was also an important weekend for me since the last time I was up at the cottage it was a few days after my first chemo and I didn't really know what the future had in store for me. I didn't think I was going to die - I've never had that dreaded feeling that I wasn't going to survive this cancer thing - but it was a very unknown time.
In addition to that, this month last year is when I first found the tumour (hence the title of this entry). I couldn't tell you exactly which day it was but I know it was on the weekend and I was standing at the patio door because I had just let the dogs out and was watching Lola chase Steve (our resident red squirrel) and scratched the side of my boob and found the tumour. Of course at that time, I didn't think/know it was a tumour and I would spend the rest of the summer (until I went to see Dr. Beaulieu in August) thinking it was just a fibroadenoma because that's what everyone kept telling me. Plus they said that the lump was not what most breast cancers feel like since it was right under the skin - normally they are apparently buried in breast tissue.
So in my last post I said that I'd start to go over what I did in terms of making changes in my life while in cancer treatment. I got this idea from a book Radical Remission. It was the first cancer book I read and the best one. I know I've said this before, but if you know someone who is newly diagnosed with cancer give them this book to read. Its not all touchy feely and does not say that everyone can cure their own cancer. What it does do, is examine what people did in their lives once they got their cancer diagnosis and who came through it the other side, in many cases in spite of what their doctors said their chances were. So the author is PhD student who was studying to become an oncologist and realized that there were all of these people who went into 'remission' and doctors couldn't explain why. And that the doctors that were treating these people almost never documented what their patients did on their own to get to the remission stage. It seems that when these people went into remission, the doctors just sent them on their way without asking any questions. That's where Dr. Turner comes in - she went all over the world interviewing people to find out what they did for themselves. Then she took the top ten most common things that people did and wrote a book about it. After I read the book I wrote down these ten things in my cancer book (as an aside, everyone with cancer should have a notebook to jot stuff down - questions for doctors, books to read, phone numbers etc) and worked on them in some way over the past nine months. So I'll start with the first one and the next few posts I'll go through the rest (this will at least provide me with some more cancer-like topics for the blog!).
1. Radically changing your diet
Pre-cancer I thought that my diet was pretty good. Once I met Dr. Craig and he put me on a ketogenic diet (no carbs, no sugar) during chemo and then while having radiation, I realized how many carbs and sugar I actually did eat - and I am not one of those people who loves baked goods so if you are, you also probably eat way too many carbs and sugar. I also stopped eating dairy while on chemo too (just like Joan Lunden!). It was a really tough diet for a few reasons.
One, I was totally addicted to sugar - and here is where I am going to vent for a minute. I liked candy and not really chocolate (except now as you know dark chocolate is my thing) but once I started paying attention to sugar I immediately realized how much sugar I was consuming - not just in candy but in every day foods. I spent hours at the grocery store looking at food labels realizing there is sugar in EVERYTHING. Canned vegetables (yep, just look especially canned tomatoes - tonnes of sugar), salad dressings, condiments, any foods basically in a box - frozen lasagna as an example - and my all time biggest annoyance, bread. I know I didn't eat bread while on my ketogenic diet but now I'm venting for present day. We've started buying bread at a bakery near Dom's work because it is too difficult to find bread with no sugar (this includes glucose, fructose, corn syrup etc). Actually this past week I tried to find hamburger buns with no sugar and after looking at every label at Farm Boy and Loblaws I've figured out there are no hamburger buns without sugar being the second or third ingredient. In case you didn't know, the order of ingredients are important because they go in order of quantity (the first ingredient being the most and the last being the smallest amount). So, if you find hamburger buns without sugar let me know. Our bakery that Dom goes to doesn't make hamburger buns so I'll have to hit up a few in the next little while to see if I can find some. By the way, the World Health Organization recommends that you do not consume more than 25 grams of added sugar a day (not including fruit) - try it and see if you can do it. Its tough especially if you haven't been paying attention to added sugar in things like bread and salad dressings. Oh and there is this new documentary about sugar that's playing tonight at the Mayfair if you are interested in going Sugar Coated it's called.
Two, despite that I thought we ate well, we didn't eat the variety of vegetables that I thought we did. I have discovered a lot of different vegetables over the past nine months that have become regular vegetables in our diet - ones that I probably wouldn't eat nearly as much if it wasn't for the cancer. Swiss chard, bok choy, kale (although not my favourite), chick peas (thanks to Ann I like these now), cauliflower, mushrooms (all different kinds not just white button ones), spaghetti squash, spinach are all vegetables we eat regularly now - that means we have more vegetables at meals than we do meat or carbs like pasta or bread. In fact, we hardly ever eat pasta anymore (much to Dom's disappointment) and when we do, I don't really eat much. I always make spaghetti squash to either eat in place of pasta or add a few pieces of pasta to the squash. Dom eats the rest of the pasta. And we hardly eat potatoes (although I've never been a potato fan) so when we do its sweet potatoes (again, much to Dom's disappointment). Oh and out of your 7 servings of fruits and vegetables a day - only about 2 should be from fruit, the rest from vegetables. I've been using that app I mentioned in my last blog, I have only managed to reach 7 servings of vegetables and fruit a handful of times after about a month - so if you've done better way to go. Pretty surprising for someone who pays an inordinate amount of time paying attention to her diet.
Three, almost everything we eat now is organic. I'm not a lecturer about organics and if we are at someone else's place or restaurant I'm not worried about eating organic but at home almost everything we eat is organic. I know there are still chemicals in organic foods but there are less and what I figure is that it can't hurt - except of course your pocketbook - but for us, its worth it.
Four, we eat a lot more fish. I didn't realize how much meat we ate until we switched to fish and tried to reduce our meat intake overall (especially red meat). I also care more about where it comes from because it is proven that chicken that's grain fed and beef that's grass fed has better nutrition and higher concentrations of good things like Omega-3. This is harder than you might think and more expensive too unless you are like me and only buy the good meat when its reduced and freeze it for later. If you aren't buying omega-3 eggs start, otherwise you aren't getting nearly the amount of omega-3's as you normally would.
Five, drinking alcohol. If you know me, you know that I love my red wine. I stopped drinking all together during cancer treatment mainly because I didn't feel great and never wanted to jeopardize the times when I did feel good with a headache or upset stomach from red wine. For breast cancer risk, if you drink even a few glasses a week it can significantly increase your risk for certain breast cancers. For triple negative breast cancers, there have recently been some studies that indicate drinking red wine might be beneficial (yes!) so I have a few glasses a week but don't drink nearly as much as I used to. Plus, with feeling basically not well from chemo, surgery and radiation I don't dare have more than two glasses in one night (which makes me feel woozy anyway) because I don't ever want to feel sick again (when I had the flu a few weeks ago and felt nauseous it actually upset me because it reminded me so much of being on chemo). So, for those of you who drink more than a few glasses a week especially if its not red wine be aware that this increases your risk for cancer - if you smoke its a hundred times worse so don't even get me started. If you are someone like Dom, you believe wholeheartedly that craft beer is actually good for you (and he's not wrong) so if you drink craft beer you are better off than those Coors Light, Canadian, Blue drinkers.
In the book, there are a lot of people that had really bad diets - like really bad. Fast food a few times a week and most home meals out of boxes but that wasn't us so its all perspective. Some people when they get cancer have really unhealthy habits and others aren't so bad. If you want to challenge yourself - do even one of the things I listed above. Try not drinking for a week - or cut out carbs or sugar - I guarantee you it will be a challenge - one that you probably would never have imagined is that difficult until you try. Dom has a friend who doesn't drink for the entire month of January - maybe just to give him a reminder of how much he does drink - but its a great idea. I like to think my diet was in the not so bad category - as opposed to really bad - so changing my diet wasn't that difficult. I give kudos to my mom for this - even though my childhood has many memories of casserole (some fond, some not) my mom always made us meals. It was a treat even to have tacos or something like that, I'm sure because she couldn't make the taco shells. And whenever we asked 'what's for dessert?' my mom would always answer (much to our disappointment) "well, there's fruit'. Thanks Mom.